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What I'm listening to now: When you Learn How to Love - Travis Garland

Well today was definitely interesting to say the least. Classes, we actually had to do work today :P Math and Lit were the worst. Math was horrible cause I don't know any algebra 1 and thats what the sophomores are reviewing, so I'm totally lost trying to learn it with Joey :P And Lit is gonna be awful since my worst enemy is in it and she sits across from me and I wanna shoot her. I mean I wouldn't have much of a problem if Cort wasn't in the class too, but Cort is and its like Lauren and I are having tug of war over Cort and I feel bad for Cort, being in the middle of everything. So that'll be the worst class ever especially with Kelmachter.

What I'm Listening to now: One Time - Justin Bieber

I got lost of comments on my hair today, it was pretty exciting. I wasn't expecting any cause I figure its normal to see kids with dyed hair but mine is interesting I guess. Its cool to see whos parents are strict about it, and others ideas of what they wanna do with their hair, its pretty cool :)

So this morning or last night rather I had these weird dreams. Basically I went looking for a ghost of a horse but found a ghost of a person who was looking for David's mom. It was a big ball of fire that followed me around asking me for where David was. And then it was just weird.

I got all my homework done. I'm gonna at least try to do my homework this year cause I'll be looking at college next year and I don't wanna have bad grades. Obviously studying is out of the question, I've never studied and I never will :P I've actually tried studying before and it just takes too much time and doesn't really help me much :P So school is gonna be a big priority this year, at least bigger than it was last year, cause I guess in a way now it matters :)

What I'm Listening to now: You Make Me Smile - Uncle Kracker

On the topic of college. I have to go through about 6 years of school before I can be a farrier because my mom won't let me just go to the farrier school, which is about a year and a half and no other school. So I've kinda decided that I'm gonna go to Sweet Briar College majoring in music and taking their horse program. That way I can do what I want to. Or I'll go to a different school for farming, and livestock. I'm trying to figure everything out now so I can just go to college in 2 years :)

Band today, its gonna be awesome :)

New Beginnings :)

What I'm listening to: Say So - My Favorite Highway

So school has begun once again. Junior year is finally here! I was excited to go to school and see everyone again. It was awesome. My classes are really good and I'm really looking forward to American Pop. cause all we do in that class is watch movies and listen to music. Its so great. I think there's only one class I'll really have a problem with and thats Lit with Kelmachter who's crazy to begin with. Its really gonna be a great year :) Especially since I am actually back in geometry, but Joey is in my class, so that'll be interesting :) In almost every class I have a few friends that I chill with, its nice :P

With every school year comes change. I've learned that I have changed a lot, I want to change cause apparently people find me annoying, I don't mean to be annoying but it happens. I'm really trying to talk about stuff people want to, which is why I don't really start conversations, its hard for me to start them anyways. But I learned a lot about people on MTV's show If You Really Knew Me. Honestly, its a really good show and its like CHS's B1 day but more personal levels. It taught me what people actually go through during high school and how they have to deal with it because no one will listen to them or understand it. But I'm really trying to change and I think I have to watch that show more to really get it into my head that I really need to change. I mean I've started to change because some people I'm used to hanging out with they've become far away. I'm not sure if its just cause of the summer or because I just can't talk to people anymore. I've learned to think things through, (unless I'm tired then stuff just flows out that I'm not supposed to say) even know its pretty hard. But I am having a hard time being friends with all my old friends, its just weird to me.

What I'm Listening to now: Chelsea Dagger - The Fratellis

Once again I have a boyfriend, but he really is different than any other guy I've dated. He's not in band, which is very strange for me :P But he still gives me butterflies even after almost a month. And he's the first guy I've dated that I wasn't his first girlfriend, so its nice to have him be in control and not me :) I really think this is great and I've been really happy since we've been dating :)

Marching band is awesome this year, I refuse to believe that our show is not about pirates. The music is totally pirates and its so much fun. My part is really easy too which is nice even though Barry weighs a ton. But I'm gaining muscle from him cause my thumbs are screwed up from him so I better be strong after or he was just being mean :P I really can't wait for competitions this year. What will be weird is that I won't have a guy to huddle up against this year cause he's not in band :P It'll still be fun, my best friends are in band :)

What I'm listening to: Thinkin bout something - Hanson

Confused

What I'm listening to: Secondhand Seranade - Your Call

What I'm confused about: So it seems as though people, mostly guys I guess, like me, but most of them want me more than a friend, which I don't mind. I don't mind people telling me they like me, but I feel bad when I have to say I'm not into them in that way. I mostly want friendship and nowadays, if I like someone I'll either end up telling them or someone else who knows will for me. And as of right now I don't like anyone, but I keep talking to Tyler (he's my best friend don't hate :P) and I guess the way I talk I flirt. I really don't mean to but I do, I feel bad that I do this cause I don't like that I lead people on that I like them. But I wanna know if I lead a lot of people on. If I have please tell me, I feel bad and most people I just want as friends, like I said I don't like anyone right now :)

What I'm Listening to: Enrique Iglises ft. Pitbull - I Like It

I've been so happy lately and its lovely :) I haven't been this happy in a long time. I've been hanging out with my friends so I guess that could be a reason, plus softball is so close to being over. And also Abi's party, which I am incredibly excited for. Happy Happy Happy :)

Dancin With Tears In My Eyes

What I'm Listening to: Love Me - Justin Bieber only cause I need a get me up.

So once again, Tyler and I are not together, and it was my fault and it was my first time getting dumped so I'm having a tough time. I don't see us getting back together even if I wanted to. I did ask him out this time so I'm kinda glad he broke up with me instead of the other way around, but I guess I wasn't expecting him to do it cause, I've never gotten dumped before, so its weird for me. But the only time we actually talked was when we fought so our relationship wasn't headed to a good place anyways. Oh well I'm gonna get through it I hope.

What I'm Listening to: Love the Way You Lie - Eminem and Rihanna

I guess I'm just upset or something, but I've been feeling alone for a while now. And I don't care who reads this, but I'm putting my feelings out here and if you aren't into feelings don't look. But I feel like I have no true friends, because when I talk with people I feel like they don't want to listen to me, especially if their facial expressions are annoyed, which seems like a lot of people when I talk. Which is why now I'm kinda quiet. I am kinda loud and obnoxious with family, but anyone else I back off now. It feels weird, like I'm trying to get away from the world, which I guess in a way I am. I wish I was, but I can't get away from life and what it throws at me which sucks.

What I'm Listening to: Ridin Solo - Jason DeRulo

So on a happier note, Mamma had baby bunnies :) she had 5 but one didn't make it :( so we have 3 dark ones and 1 light one. And Lumpy and the grey one are supposedly leaving tomorrow, so they'll finally have good homes :) I'm glad for them and excited for Mamma's babies to grow up :)

Hannah Montana Forever :P

What I'm listening to: Hannah Montana the TV show :P

Well I obviously haven't been on here a lot, but a lot has happened between everything. So I want to tell people, if my statuses are depressing or mad or whatnot, yea I'm upset, but it could be anything from family fights to boyfriend fights, to just a bad day. So before when my parents were fighting, I do get very upset cause I get scared, I'm not sure why though cause they always make up, but its still nerve-racking and I get upset about it. Obviously I'm going back out with Tyler :) and yea I get mad eery once in a while, but all couples get that, whether its often or not. And thats basically the biggest thing thats happened too, me and Tyler getting back together :) For all of you to know I was hanging out with him a lot then anyone else haha.
But the worst thing thing is that I pretty much lost my best friend. He'd rather spend time with his girlfriend. I refuse to be around her because all she does is start drama and make up rumors about me, so I didn't wanna hang out with her, he chose her. I've seen him once this summer and he was with her so I didn't talk to him. Yet I get in trouble for being a bitch cause I don't want to get in a fight. I feel like shit, even though I did nothing wrong. Ugh his loss oh well

A Few weeks and I get my license, then I need to get a job, or else I won't have money for gas like ever. And with my car it actually doesn't have to be filled all the time which is nice. I drive it when I can and its like every two weeks I fill it up, probably cause I actually go the speed limit xP I always get tailgated though, even though I'm going the speed limit. Why does everyone need to go places so quickly? I always leave like 20 minutes early then I need to anyways, just to be early cause I always feel like I'm running late even if I'm early.

What I'm Listening to: Dynamite - Taio Cruz

At Lake Compounce on Wednesday I met Tino Coury :) I got his autograph and a picture with him. It was sick :) Tyler didn't like it much haha xP

Damn :)

Me: Well from getting back from PA which was soo much fun btw to yesterday which a lot of stuff happened :) So PA we won our first game which was acutallly our second game and we won two games the whole tourney, but its better then we have been doing so its lovely fun :) At practice on Tuesday though we had to keep running, which in turn my stomach did not like but I had no where to thow up and I can't throw up without a drain or a toilet xP yummy I know :) So that was a fun practice xD Well yesterday Iwent to the Lake with Joey and that would be my brother not any Joey that I wanted to go with xP But it was fun although he didn't let me go swimmig so I'm hoping I can go again next Monday or Wednesday, but I'll prolly go Wednesday, so if anyone wants to come with me txt me orinbox me on facebook, I'm almost always on :) But anyways back on topic with the Lake :) I went with Joey and these two kids I blame both of them but they kept telling me to go with this kid and accidentally I'm starting to like him, dammit haha. He broke my streak of 10 dys of not liking anyone :O Holy Jesus I have never not liked anyone for that long since before 4th grade haha. So this should be interesting to see how it turns out, especially cause its another one of my brothers friends, a sophomore, I really don't know what I'm gonna do with myself haha xD

Family: Obviously I went with Joey to the Lake so I'm not trying to rip his face off as of yet today. And he actually wasn't bad at the Lake around his friends so I give him credit xP But my grandpa is comin today so I'm preparing for that anad cleaning like mad cause my momm wants me to ugh to housework :P So thats what I'm doing most of my day.

Pets: Well, I haven't done much with the animals today except with Milo waking me up to get on my bed and then sleep on my feet so I couldn't get up xP But Baby Kitty keeps scratching Barry's case like its her scratching post and i feel bad cause its gotta wake up Barry in his time of hibernation xP for those of you don't know who Barry is you'll have to figure it out or ask me or one of my friends who knows :) but Baby Kitty is very obnoxious right now. Romeo is leaving in like 45 days!!!! That makes me so excited cause I won't have to deal with him haha xP No I actually do like him he's just a scaredy cat and that bothers me xP

Friends: Everyone's been so busy when I try to hang out, or they are grounded xP But I wanna hangout with someone so if anyone wants to chill soon that'd be lovely and let me know. I've only done like one thing this whole summer with friends and that was Kenzie's party and softball of course, cause they are awesome too :) So hang out with me :)

Music:
"Stranger" - Travis Garland
"Heart Speaks First" - Travis Garland
"The Perfect Mistake" - Cartel :)

Last Post Till Monday :)

Me: Well I'll be leaving for PA in about an hour!! Softball's gonna be interesting down there :P So right now in my life I have a horrible problem which most girls wouldn't see as much of one, but for me its bad. People like me, sure its nice, but sometimes very creepy. I don't mind people telling me, but I just got out of a relationship, CHILL OUT! And this is for all the boys who like me, as of right now I am letting my heart do the talking but as of now he's not choosing anyone :) Stay friends with me though you never kow who he'll choose. Oh and yes I am a whore :) and proud of it :) So yea that's really all that I've had on my mind a lot haha so that'd be me :)

Pets: The bunnies are gonna be with my brother for a weekend :O I am pretty scared for them. Actually all the animals are all gonna be in his hands, but I'm mostly worried about the bunnies cause they are mine and no one elses. So I will miss them for the weekend definitely :)

Friends: Yesterday's party was awesome and really showed me how many people are in different groups. Mckenzie is in three different groups and you could see that haha :) I'm not the only freak :P But hangin out with people for the first time this summer was nice, and great to see everyone again :) Maybe next week or something I'll throw a get together or something. I'll try to convince my parents so I can see everyone again :)

Music:
"California Gurls" - Katy Perry
"The Perfect Mistake" - Cartel
"Ridin Solo" - Jason DeRulo :)