What I'm listening to: Secondhand Seranade - Your Call
What I'm confused about: So it seems as though people, mostly guys I guess, like me, but most of them want me more than a friend, which I don't mind. I don't mind people telling me they like me, but I feel bad when I have to say I'm not into them in that way. I mostly want friendship and nowadays, if I like someone I'll either end up telling them or someone else who knows will for me. And as of right now I don't like anyone, but I keep talking to Tyler (he's my best friend don't hate :P) and I guess the way I talk I flirt. I really don't mean to but I do, I feel bad that I do this cause I don't like that I lead people on that I like them. But I wanna know if I lead a lot of people on. If I have please tell me, I feel bad and most people I just want as friends, like I said I don't like anyone right now :)
What I'm Listening to: Enrique Iglises ft. Pitbull - I Like It
I've been so happy lately and its lovely :) I haven't been this happy in a long time. I've been hanging out with my friends so I guess that could be a reason, plus softball is so close to being over. And also Abi's party, which I am incredibly excited for. Happy Happy Happy :)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Dancin With Tears In My Eyes
What I'm Listening to: Love Me - Justin Bieber only cause I need a get me up.
So once again, Tyler and I are not together, and it was my fault and it was my first time getting dumped so I'm having a tough time. I don't see us getting back together even if I wanted to. I did ask him out this time so I'm kinda glad he broke up with me instead of the other way around, but I guess I wasn't expecting him to do it cause, I've never gotten dumped before, so its weird for me. But the only time we actually talked was when we fought so our relationship wasn't headed to a good place anyways. Oh well I'm gonna get through it I hope.
What I'm Listening to: Love the Way You Lie - Eminem and Rihanna
I guess I'm just upset or something, but I've been feeling alone for a while now. And I don't care who reads this, but I'm putting my feelings out here and if you aren't into feelings don't look. But I feel like I have no true friends, because when I talk with people I feel like they don't want to listen to me, especially if their facial expressions are annoyed, which seems like a lot of people when I talk. Which is why now I'm kinda quiet. I am kinda loud and obnoxious with family, but anyone else I back off now. It feels weird, like I'm trying to get away from the world, which I guess in a way I am. I wish I was, but I can't get away from life and what it throws at me which sucks.
What I'm Listening to: Ridin Solo - Jason DeRulo
So on a happier note, Mamma had baby bunnies :) she had 5 but one didn't make it :( so we have 3 dark ones and 1 light one. And Lumpy and the grey one are supposedly leaving tomorrow, so they'll finally have good homes :) I'm glad for them and excited for Mamma's babies to grow up :)
So once again, Tyler and I are not together, and it was my fault and it was my first time getting dumped so I'm having a tough time. I don't see us getting back together even if I wanted to. I did ask him out this time so I'm kinda glad he broke up with me instead of the other way around, but I guess I wasn't expecting him to do it cause, I've never gotten dumped before, so its weird for me. But the only time we actually talked was when we fought so our relationship wasn't headed to a good place anyways. Oh well I'm gonna get through it I hope.
What I'm Listening to: Love the Way You Lie - Eminem and Rihanna
I guess I'm just upset or something, but I've been feeling alone for a while now. And I don't care who reads this, but I'm putting my feelings out here and if you aren't into feelings don't look. But I feel like I have no true friends, because when I talk with people I feel like they don't want to listen to me, especially if their facial expressions are annoyed, which seems like a lot of people when I talk. Which is why now I'm kinda quiet. I am kinda loud and obnoxious with family, but anyone else I back off now. It feels weird, like I'm trying to get away from the world, which I guess in a way I am. I wish I was, but I can't get away from life and what it throws at me which sucks.
What I'm Listening to: Ridin Solo - Jason DeRulo
So on a happier note, Mamma had baby bunnies :) she had 5 but one didn't make it :( so we have 3 dark ones and 1 light one. And Lumpy and the grey one are supposedly leaving tomorrow, so they'll finally have good homes :) I'm glad for them and excited for Mamma's babies to grow up :)
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Hannah Montana Forever :P
What I'm listening to: Hannah Montana the TV show :P
Well I obviously haven't been on here a lot, but a lot has happened between everything. So I want to tell people, if my statuses are depressing or mad or whatnot, yea I'm upset, but it could be anything from family fights to boyfriend fights, to just a bad day. So before when my parents were fighting, I do get very upset cause I get scared, I'm not sure why though cause they always make up, but its still nerve-racking and I get upset about it. Obviously I'm going back out with Tyler :) and yea I get mad eery once in a while, but all couples get that, whether its often or not. And thats basically the biggest thing thats happened too, me and Tyler getting back together :) For all of you to know I was hanging out with him a lot then anyone else haha.
But the worst thing thing is that I pretty much lost my best friend. He'd rather spend time with his girlfriend. I refuse to be around her because all she does is start drama and make up rumors about me, so I didn't wanna hang out with her, he chose her. I've seen him once this summer and he was with her so I didn't talk to him. Yet I get in trouble for being a bitch cause I don't want to get in a fight. I feel like shit, even though I did nothing wrong. Ugh his loss oh well
A Few weeks and I get my license, then I need to get a job, or else I won't have money for gas like ever. And with my car it actually doesn't have to be filled all the time which is nice. I drive it when I can and its like every two weeks I fill it up, probably cause I actually go the speed limit xP I always get tailgated though, even though I'm going the speed limit. Why does everyone need to go places so quickly? I always leave like 20 minutes early then I need to anyways, just to be early cause I always feel like I'm running late even if I'm early.
What I'm Listening to: Dynamite - Taio Cruz
At Lake Compounce on Wednesday I met Tino Coury :) I got his autograph and a picture with him. It was sick :) Tyler didn't like it much haha xP
Well I obviously haven't been on here a lot, but a lot has happened between everything. So I want to tell people, if my statuses are depressing or mad or whatnot, yea I'm upset, but it could be anything from family fights to boyfriend fights, to just a bad day. So before when my parents were fighting, I do get very upset cause I get scared, I'm not sure why though cause they always make up, but its still nerve-racking and I get upset about it. Obviously I'm going back out with Tyler :) and yea I get mad eery once in a while, but all couples get that, whether its often or not. And thats basically the biggest thing thats happened too, me and Tyler getting back together :) For all of you to know I was hanging out with him a lot then anyone else haha.
But the worst thing thing is that I pretty much lost my best friend. He'd rather spend time with his girlfriend. I refuse to be around her because all she does is start drama and make up rumors about me, so I didn't wanna hang out with her, he chose her. I've seen him once this summer and he was with her so I didn't talk to him. Yet I get in trouble for being a bitch cause I don't want to get in a fight. I feel like shit, even though I did nothing wrong. Ugh his loss oh well
A Few weeks and I get my license, then I need to get a job, or else I won't have money for gas like ever. And with my car it actually doesn't have to be filled all the time which is nice. I drive it when I can and its like every two weeks I fill it up, probably cause I actually go the speed limit xP I always get tailgated though, even though I'm going the speed limit. Why does everyone need to go places so quickly? I always leave like 20 minutes early then I need to anyways, just to be early cause I always feel like I'm running late even if I'm early.
What I'm Listening to: Dynamite - Taio Cruz
At Lake Compounce on Wednesday I met Tino Coury :) I got his autograph and a picture with him. It was sick :) Tyler didn't like it much haha xP
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Damn :)
Me: Well from getting back from PA which was soo much fun btw to yesterday which a lot of stuff happened :) So PA we won our first game which was acutallly our second game and we won two games the whole tourney, but its better then we have been doing so its lovely fun :) At practice on Tuesday though we had to keep running, which in turn my stomach did not like but I had no where to thow up and I can't throw up without a drain or a toilet xP yummy I know :) So that was a fun practice xD Well yesterday Iwent to the Lake with Joey and that would be my brother not any Joey that I wanted to go with xP But it was fun although he didn't let me go swimmig so I'm hoping I can go again next Monday or Wednesday, but I'll prolly go Wednesday, so if anyone wants to come with me txt me orinbox me on facebook, I'm almost always on :) But anyways back on topic with the Lake :) I went with Joey and these two kids I blame both of them but they kept telling me to go with this kid and accidentally I'm starting to like him, dammit haha. He broke my streak of 10 dys of not liking anyone :O Holy Jesus I have never not liked anyone for that long since before 4th grade haha. So this should be interesting to see how it turns out, especially cause its another one of my brothers friends, a sophomore, I really don't know what I'm gonna do with myself haha xD
Family: Obviously I went with Joey to the Lake so I'm not trying to rip his face off as of yet today. And he actually wasn't bad at the Lake around his friends so I give him credit xP But my grandpa is comin today so I'm preparing for that anad cleaning like mad cause my momm wants me to ugh to housework :P So thats what I'm doing most of my day.
Pets: Well, I haven't done much with the animals today except with Milo waking me up to get on my bed and then sleep on my feet so I couldn't get up xP But Baby Kitty keeps scratching Barry's case like its her scratching post and i feel bad cause its gotta wake up Barry in his time of hibernation xP for those of you don't know who Barry is you'll have to figure it out or ask me or one of my friends who knows :) but Baby Kitty is very obnoxious right now. Romeo is leaving in like 45 days!!!! That makes me so excited cause I won't have to deal with him haha xP No I actually do like him he's just a scaredy cat and that bothers me xP
Friends: Everyone's been so busy when I try to hang out, or they are grounded xP But I wanna hangout with someone so if anyone wants to chill soon that'd be lovely and let me know. I've only done like one thing this whole summer with friends and that was Kenzie's party and softball of course, cause they are awesome too :) So hang out with me :)
Music:
"Stranger" - Travis Garland
"Heart Speaks First" - Travis Garland
"The Perfect Mistake" - Cartel :)
Family: Obviously I went with Joey to the Lake so I'm not trying to rip his face off as of yet today. And he actually wasn't bad at the Lake around his friends so I give him credit xP But my grandpa is comin today so I'm preparing for that anad cleaning like mad cause my momm wants me to ugh to housework :P So thats what I'm doing most of my day.
Pets: Well, I haven't done much with the animals today except with Milo waking me up to get on my bed and then sleep on my feet so I couldn't get up xP But Baby Kitty keeps scratching Barry's case like its her scratching post and i feel bad cause its gotta wake up Barry in his time of hibernation xP for those of you don't know who Barry is you'll have to figure it out or ask me or one of my friends who knows :) but Baby Kitty is very obnoxious right now. Romeo is leaving in like 45 days!!!! That makes me so excited cause I won't have to deal with him haha xP No I actually do like him he's just a scaredy cat and that bothers me xP
Friends: Everyone's been so busy when I try to hang out, or they are grounded xP But I wanna hangout with someone so if anyone wants to chill soon that'd be lovely and let me know. I've only done like one thing this whole summer with friends and that was Kenzie's party and softball of course, cause they are awesome too :) So hang out with me :)
Music:
"Stranger" - Travis Garland
"Heart Speaks First" - Travis Garland
"The Perfect Mistake" - Cartel :)
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